One of the things I like about this whole “professional witch” things is finding out ways to HELP YOU get the most out of your magick.
It’s kind of one of of those “life purpose bigger plan” deals.
And one of the things I have seen as many of y’alls #1 Magick Struggle is:
Making time to make magick (followed by, making magick CONSISTENTLY, but that’s next post.)
I can understand why you think you don’t have time for a magickal life.
And I can guarantee it’s cause you’re gettin’ REAL stuffy about making sure you have ALL the right tools, ingredients, the RIGHT exact perfect spell at the exact perfect time….
With a LONG DRAWN OUT RITUAL THAT TAKES HOURS OR ELSE IT’S NOT THE MOST PERFECT MAGICK EVER OMG AHHH NO HOW ELSE WILL THE SPIRITS KNOW YOU’RE A KNOCKIN’?!
I MEAN IF IT’S NOT A THOUSAND PERCENT PERFECT THEN WHAT EVEN IS THE POINT
Okay, so let’s re-frame your magick.
You’ve already been full of magick, and working magick, and your entire life is a result of your magick up to this point.
Because MAGICK is just a fancy word for “playing with your unique experience of consciousness.”
Do you have a consciousness?
Then you’re making magick and manifesting your life 24/7.
You’ve been letting your magick (and your brain) run on autopilot, which has manifest the bad (and the good) you’re working through.
Look – talking about this stuff toes the line of victim blaming, WHICH I AM NOT HERE FOR.
When I say “your brain has been running on autopilot which had lead to your current life” – it’s not “here’s how this horrific trauma is YOUR FAULT.”
(And low key, as I test out clearing out “stuck emotions” with this “Emotions Codes” modality and seeing some instant changes, I’m a LOT more fascinated at what will get you RESULTS, not what will make you feel shame and blame for systems running on autopilot without your permission.)
But with this thoughts-creating-reality-shindig, it’s more like “the moment you can truly, really, GRASP this concept and implement it, is like the moment you ‘Wake up’ in your fave RPG game, and you get you go to the character creation screen.” (Yes, exactly like that Skyrim meme.)
AKA – all the things that happened while you were running on autopilot… were your video game character’s back story (not the result of you being “a bad person” or deserving of trauma or anything.)
Let’s look at this in action, as I had my own BIG revelation about this.
So, trigger warning, talking about almost being unalive, and people unaliving themselves.
I was crying to my friend, Neds, about feeling unseen by cisgender men.
Now – I’m pansexual, and I’ve ALWAYS been incredibly comfortable around women & trans men & non-binary people: that’s my entire family.
I wasn’t around a lot of cisgender men growing up, so their’s was the attention that I craved and felt unseen by for YEARS.
I had a few, but no one regularly in my life.
Now – we’re gonna go on a little tangent here.
As I experiment with Neville Goddard’s “The Law of Assumption” as the “Grand Unified Magick Theory”, one concept is “everyone is you pushed out.”
Aka, people can only reflect your dominant thoughts.
Even if you turn the dial from 11 of “quantum leaping to dimensions” down to neuroscience 7…
If you’re thinking “omg this person hates me” and you’ve NEVER talked to them – guess what – that’s your dominant thought!!
No but seriously – a LOT more of your life is based in your “ThinkSpace” than you realize, and therein lies the magick – ThinkSpace is easy to reprogram.
Now – “Everyone is You Pushed Out” is like Shadow work on HARD MODE.
Shadow work is a FEW different modalities lumped under a general group, but the overlying idea is:
Seeing the unseen in yourself, looking at “The stuff you dislike in others is stuff you dislike in yourself” and looking at “the stuff you like in others is stuff you like in yourself”
As I cried to Neds about how I felt unseen by cisgender men – and how that felt like MY ENTIRE LIFE since I was a kid – I paused.
Due to “the work” I’ve done internally, even when I’m having a very human moment (as we do), I’m able to process what’s going on *deeper.*
I told Neds – “I know this isn’t the problem on the surface I need to go deeper.”
Since I’ve been teaching the stuff I’ve been experimenting with, I went with an old favorite.
“How am I pushing this out, why am I pushing this out…”
After some digging – I pinned it down to two things I’d been processing.
When I was 4, I almost drowned to death. I was rescued, but my body got the memo (even if my brain didn’t fully “get it” consciously) “you’re not worth saving. If you wait for someone to come get you, you’ll die.”
When I was 5, my cisgender godfather killed himself. I did have a few grandpa’s around at that age, but my godfather was my mom’s roomie, and a 3rd parent to me, compared to the other two that I didn’t see nearly as much.
He killed himself, and my body (and baby brain) got the memo, “If you get close to people like this, they’ll leave you forever and leave you waiting.”
So, since I was 5, a little itty bit of me has had the body/brain memo, running on autopilot – “If you get close to certain types of people, they’ll leave you forever and leave you waiting – and if you wait for someone, you’ll die.”
WOW. HOW POWERFUL. THAT’S BEEN RUNNING LIKE A BACKGROUND BLOATWARE APP *FOR YEARS.*
So, how did this play out in my dating life?
I did manage to meet (and marry!) my ex-husband. (A “bring love to me” spell candle helped this along.)
And we had a pattern of “yoooooooour trauma triggers my trauma triggers your trauma triggers my traumaaaaa”, extreme co-dependency, BIG OL’ YELLY SCREAMY FIGHTS, and finally – us getting divorced.
During the relationship, my worth about my body (a by-product of early childhood stressors, compounded by a society that said “you should be ashamed for your body being stressed and looking like that” – yikes, not the move fellas) – added to me “pushing out” how much my ex-husband couldn’t be attracted to me, and that affected a lot of things as well.
Later on, I met a real sweet guy – and I’ll tell ya whut – I spent the brief time we had together TELLING HIM HOW I WASN’T GOOD ENOUGH FOR HIM IN SO MANY WAYS.
Like in a “If I post this picture of us to social media you won’t be ashamed to be seen with me, right.” way.
Full. On. Yikes.
I have empathy for past me, because she was just doing the best she could, with the brain she had, and the autopilots she was already grabbing hold of the reigns on.
So – I was making magick and manifesting my entire life…
To show me EXACTLY what I was unconsciously wishing for…
Which was, in so many words – “I’m not good enough.”
Then I kept (unconsciously) ordering from the “Waiter of Life” –
“Excuse me good waiter, can you please deliver me an order of ‘How am I not good enough for cis gender men?'”
“Yes, whatever the madame wants.”[Waiter brings order]
“Excuse me, good waiter. WHAT THE FUCK. Why did you bring me an order of ‘cisgender men leaving me’?”
“You.. you ordered it, it’s the ‘How am I not good enough for cisgender men?’ order.”
I WAS MAKING MAGICK EVERY DAY, EVERY MOMENT.
But I was running on AUTO-PILOT, and the “life waiter” was doing it’s best to bring me my order, *but I needed to change what I was ordering on auto-pilot.*
“HOW DARE YOU BRING ME THE EXACT THING I KEEP ORDERING!”
And guess whattttt…..
You’re also ALWAYS manifesting and making magick – the question is – is this what you’re wanting to *consciously* creating.
(Plus, as your “mad experimenter scientist” of a witchy friend, the latest “Emotion Codes” stuck emotions thing I’m testing involves certain stuck emotions drawing MORE of the stuck-shit-you-don’t-want to you – WOW. How’s THAT for inconvenient.)
Okay – I know this is a long winded way to say “add cinnamon to your daily coffee for abundance” but it’s not about the cinnamon…
It’s about *what are your dominant thought patterns that you haven’t analyzed since childhood that are working on autopilot to bring you your current life.*
Adding little spell ingredients that correspond to things, and adding them to your daily meals – while you’re getting the power of the ingredient’s “theme” you’re tapping into…
You’re also, regularly, adding new – happier – thoughts into your baseline “mental diet” and that will help you start to make NEW magick on auto-pilot in the background.
How to Make More Time for Magick
- Realize you’re ALWAYS making magick
- Find a few kitchen ingredients that you already love, look up their different meanings, and then start adding them to your foods.
- Easy one: any “cinnamon/allspice/pumpkin spice/etc. to your morning warm drink, as you stir in a *specific* direction. Same with stirring foods and adding herbs.)
- Profit? (Oh wait, that’s the underpants gnomes.)
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